Sunday, October 18, 2009

Depression, on and off

The Future of Repair.
T.F.R.
 
 

Did some one tell American Family (CHNL 25 )  about my blog?
Seriously?
I could've made money outta this?! Haha, 

For Real. Secret Life of the American Teen?. Lame version of me. 

I honestly, have been okay lately. The guy I've talked about, W/ the miscarriage & all? We are back together. I honestly think we might get married. 




My family life as completely evolved. Things are all on the up and up.
MY friendships are pretty solid.
I now have a Job
&
Sometimes, I still feel alone. Some people have heard the expression of hearts beating faster when you are with the person you love .  . . And When I am not. When I am alone. Or all to myself . . . I can feel my heart going slower. Like The Depression is hovering right with me. I feel as though It might not ever go away . . .


Suidical thoughts leave.
Depression goes away,right?
With out Medication?
Am I normal?
Do I fit in?
Do I want to fit in?
How do I decide where I belong in this world?

Is there really Future to my Repair?
Repair: as in something is broken?

Am.I.Broken?



3 comments:

Muttering Mark said...

Hello,

It took me a while to work out, that the normal people are boring and us mad people are actually beautiful. we're right and there wrong. and there are a surprising number of us.

i hope you feel better soon.
mark

TheSecretHer said...

Do you really thing it is as simple as that? We.Are.Right.They.Are.Wrong?


There must be a middle Ground.

I do agree. Normal = Boring. Yet remarkable on how they all can fit into such a common mold.

Admin1 said...

eHay there. Your blog is looking good! I know the heartbreak of losing a child. I've been there. I'm so sorry that you had to experience that too.

I couldn't find a folllower button though. :(

Warmest wishes,
Kendra
http://www.kendrasunqiuestyle.blogspot.com