T.F.R.
To begin::
Thanks "Your daily" That quote has gotten me pretty far.
since I've been gone I've come to realize attitude truly is everything.
so thanks again, for that reminder. You have a lot to do with it.
Anyways, it's been a while.
Since then I have decided to give up anything going on with my best friend, ex, FWB or whatever he is to me.
I always end up feeling used or alone.(I know he feels guilty. . he's told me before) Because sex is something people in love do. (well . .. should be, although it is often in lust instead) and to know that we are not in that passionate love anymore . . . hurts. Knowing that, helps me realize that this will not help our friendship. It could only hurt it. Because I will never truly get over him, and the guilt will eventually eat at him too much. So, its at its end with him. Although, he will remain my best friend.
Sometimes the person who has hurt me the worst is the one who can make me feel better.
(he is my ex, and my best friend) We had a serious conversation. Talking to him as my ex, not my best friend. I vented to him all my anger & hurt with him. He cried a single tear, he tried for me not to see. . .but I saw. =( Telling me that it will never be. Then, as my best friend held me and told me I will be okay, and he is right. I will be and I am.
Well, that is all. . . other than the usual. . .
school starting, driving, getting a job, and whatever else. . .
Thanks for reading
leave me what you're thinking, no matter how random
love,
TFR
2 comments:
Hi Amanda,
I found your blog sort of by mistake. You are a sweet person, I feel like sweeping you up in my arms and making everything okay ( I read your Auto Bio).
God is the answer, and it doesn't even matter what the question is. I'm so sorry you had a bad experience at Church but happy that you didn't let that experience turn you against God.
I'm older than you (44) but I understand a lot of the things you write about. I was raped at 19,not by someone I know like you and not over a long period of time, it was one incident. It was scary. Although I almost never thought about it after it happened, I think it has shaped the person I've become. It does something to you, I'm not sure what.
I'm writing about my life:
http://www.blogger.com/home?pli=1.
You have to read the older posta first in order for it to flow.
It would really help me to hear from someone your age, I need to feel like I can help someone, even if its just to help kids know what NOT to do and how NOT to live their younger years.
E-mail me if you need to 'talk'.
I can somehow relate to this statement, but in my experience, I let my ex out of my life. I can feel your pain girl.
Wow, I'm actually crying reading this, the part where you talked about how your ex is the person that hurts you the worse but somehow can make you feel better, saying that you guys were still sexual after breaking up (is what im assuming from what you wrote), but in my situation, it's been 3 weeks since I've let my ex out of my life as a friend, and as my ex, and have started to move on, you can see a lot of my vents I've written throughout my blog if you care to read. Take care.
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