T.F.R.
The Holiday Season is coming.
Got any traditions? All mine are about dysfunction. . .
I'm Scared, for these upcoming holidays . .
If I am okay, repaired, or happy or whatever it is that I want to be . . .
Will this time with my family not show it through?
Holidays will show who I am, and how I am. I am suppose to be happy.
But, am I? Will I be?
I was not last, nor the year before last. Maybe this year I will.
The process of a tree losing is beautiful. Losing leaves and yet without them still remains such a wonder, such a beauty. The entire being of a tree is an amazing process. The tree holds many purposes in todays world. I can relate remarkably to a tree . . . Relating to a tree more than most people I know of . . . I know this isn't sane but, is it insane? Not nearly.
The leaves have fallen.
The leaves are gone.
The trees still stand, with out the leaves.
The trees are still beautiful.
The Hope is still embedded within the bark of a beautiful,strong tree.
Wish me Luck.
Hope goes to you, as well, on this holiday season.
4 comments:
I know exactly what you are saying. I never feel as lost as I do on the Holidays. Forced to make nice with the ones that have the most effect on my current misery. Share bread with the one that told me my being raped was my own fault. Family should be your home, not a place you fear and dread. At least the food is good. Cheers and best wishes.
yur extremely talented. keep writing & i'll keep reading.
So, your rape was your fault? When I said i needed help b/c of mine I was a drama queen.
The food was pretty stand up. Haha :) How was your holidays?
And jay, thank-you :)
When will parents understand that we will not be who they want us to be through force and punishment? haha
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