T.F.R.
Plan B:Everything went fine.
I wasn't sick at all. =)
I must be in control. It's my life. and I can be a bit selfish if I want.
I really did appreciate that. Thanks Tom, ha.
Well, You said I was here more to shock then inform. I believe I was in shock. So, I didn't take time to dig deep and see the real problem. So I just "shared the shock"
The Real Issue: I have sex with my ex boyfriend of over a year/ my bestfriend because I feel this way we are more connected. It is my way of not completely getting over the break up. I feel I give him something others cannot offer him. Plus, he is really cute and it's hard to say no. I just do not want to lose him. I know sex isn't a way to keep him. He would be there without it. But we both enjoy it, and it makes me feel a bit special to him.
I have a feeling the sex isn't what makes me special. Me being his bestfriend makes me special in his eyes. I'm scared if I keep having sex with him it will tear us apart.
Wow, I feel so stupid. There are so many issues and more important things going on in the world and here I am. Blogging about stupidity.
6 comments:
hey! I have sex too! with my best friend/boyfriend! yaaaay for us!
Other people WILL judge you. It is the way it is. You just have to learn to judge and/or not judge yourself.
People will judge you.And it's not nice. But if having sex with your ex makes you happy, go for it. My ex and I still "kick" it every now and then. I used to just "give it up to guys", but I've come to realize they want sex, they don't want to know the real me. Hurts, yes. But, I'm learning to love myself more. Go ahead and read my blog, it's..a laugh riot.
: )
Difficult to answer,
Maybe I see a little bit of the young me in you,
Maybe now that I am near the end of my life I think that I might be able to give you some advice...
Yes I do care because I think you are unhappy and at 17 life should be wonderful, painless and new.
I know that if I could speak my mind in the secret way of blogs when I was 17, I would have done some things different.
So, I am listening.
July 7, 2008 3:38 AM
From a guy's point of view, 90% of the time a guy has a sex life with a friend who isn't a girlfriend, the relationship is only about the sex. If you are ok with only being a sex partner, then ok. If you think this is a way to something more from him, I'm guessing the chances are not in your favor. I wish you luck and happiness.
Dear TFR... I found your blog, and I want you to know you're not alone. There are people out there who don't even know you who care about you... I am a Christian also, but I don't go to church. I believe in the "personal relationship" with Christ rather than the congregational relationship. Talk to Him.... He's there with you right now and has been this whole time.
I too, will follow you on your journey. I just have a hard time with BFWB because sex with someone should be in a whole different catagory than friendship... and that's not saying a friendship can't be much more satisfying than sex, because it usually is. Follow your instincts, you wouldn't be writing about it if you weren't questioning it... Something deep down tells you it might not be the thing to do... if that's all your x wants from you, he'll find someone else, if not, he'll be your friend and always be there for you and never expect it...
I hope this will be taken in the spirit it was written with, in love and concern.
AuggieDoggiesmom
It's good to know you're fine. Between the awkwardness of reading the post before this one, and the suspense of waiting for this page to load, I got a little worried.
I wish you all the best, and I'm looking forward to what you have to say.
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